PMS

For me PMS usually has a different definition than many women. Yes, I get bitchy, my boobs hurt, and I gain 5 lbs of water weight. But instead of PreMenstrual Syndrome, for me it stands for Psychotic Manifestation of Symptoms. Every little ache turns into something major in my mind the week or 10 days before my period. While I know it is absolutely and totally irrational thinking, I constantly am at battle with my mind to calm down and just relax. I will even look things up on the internet, WebMD. It is totally psycho! This month seems to have been worse. I don't know why ~ I'd like to blame it on the fact that I need Jarod home to engage in conversation to keep my mind occupied.

I guess the up-side to all of this is that it is usually better within a day or so of getting my period, and that I can rationalize again for another 4 weeks (thanks to a 5 week cycle). I guess I should also be thankful for the fact that I can recognize the psychosis in all of it and not pay $25 to have my doctor reassure me, ever-so-patiently, that I am fine and it is just my horomones! Sometimes I just hate being a woman! and please, please let my period come so I can be sane again!